Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding;
Proverbs 3:5

John does not always do what I want him to do. I know that is not a news flash, but it is true. He doesn't always do things the way I want him to do them. I wish he would do things the way I think they should be done (when I want them to be done and how I want them to be done), but he doesn't. Many times this causes me frustration and anger. Of course, I feel that I know what is best. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I don't. Either way, he gets to choose. He has free will, and I don't get to control it.

I felt myself getting bothered today because John seems to be taking longer to do something than I want him to. I feel like I could just do it myself and get it done quicker, but it is not my place. I Gently, God showed me that this was a trust test. Not a test about my trust in John, but a test about my trust in God. Is John my source or is God my source? Do I believe that God will take care of us? Do I believe that God will work things out for our good? Yes, John is my husband, but he is not God. He is a provider not THE provider. He is a resource not THE source. He is my friend and my lover, but he is not my all-knowing, ever-present, all powerful God.  So, instead of fretting about what John was doing and how long it was taking, I decided to thank God for using this time to do what He needed to do.

Perhaps, there are some things you would like changed about your spouse. Maybe you would like them to do some things differently. Are you trusting God even when you don't understand the actions of your spouse or are you trying to figure things out? Whose understanding are you leaning on? Can you trust God in the meantime? Can you believe that God will work in and through your spouse for the greater good? Rest in the fact that you are a child of the king, and He will protect and keep you. No need to nag. No need to argue. Rest and trust. Believe the God of the bible. Believe every word that He has said concerning you. Trust in God!